Today, I have had an abundance of energy. It's amazing to feel energized & pain free!
Please...please...please...let it last for a while.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Today's Strangeness
This morning I woke up feeling pretty good. Of course, my hands still hurt. A little more than usual actually. But, I feel energetic. Will it last the rest of the day? Guess we shall see.
However, I also had an odd discovery. The water hitting me while showering was terribly uncomfortable this morning. How strange is that? The worst of it had to be when the water was hitting my scalp. I couldn't wait to get out of there.
This leaves me wondering if a new symptom is developing, particularly after the hyper-sensitivity of Tuesday night.
I'm quite torn on this. On one hand, I would really like to know what is wrong with me. We have been waiting on new symptoms for a clearer picture. Doubt it's enough.
On the other hand, being that uncomfortable everytime I take a shower is not at all welcome. I honestly cannot imagine dealing with that the rest of my life.
However, I also had an odd discovery. The water hitting me while showering was terribly uncomfortable this morning. How strange is that? The worst of it had to be when the water was hitting my scalp. I couldn't wait to get out of there.
This leaves me wondering if a new symptom is developing, particularly after the hyper-sensitivity of Tuesday night.
I'm quite torn on this. On one hand, I would really like to know what is wrong with me. We have been waiting on new symptoms for a clearer picture. Doubt it's enough.
On the other hand, being that uncomfortable everytime I take a shower is not at all welcome. I honestly cannot imagine dealing with that the rest of my life.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Starting Over
This morning the scale read 181.6. Back to the beginning.
I don't know how difficult the weight loss process will be this time. At this point, I don't think walking is even possible. I know without a doubt that I need to walk & exercise to lose the weight. Watching my food intake is not enough.
Unfortunately, I'm having much difficulty with pain and fatigue. I'm sleeping my mornings away, because I'm not rested from the previous night. The pain in my hands and feet have escalated, but they still aren't as bad as I've experienced.
Last night before bed, I had another episode like last year. While the sensations were different, my nerves seemed to be hyper-sensitive. I can't even explain the sensation. When it started, it caused me to rub my face & scalp. The rest of my body had that odd sensation, too. But, I reacted to the face & scalp.
Last year, I thought the cold triggered the episode. After last night, I'm not so sure.
I'm so tired of being a marionette to my health issues. Today alone, I have so much that needs to be accomplished. Yet, I'm too tired to do most of it. I've managed some laundry, including folding things that have been in baskets for the last few days.
The worst indication of my condition--Jared requested I make cupcakes for his Band Banquet tomorrow. I don't think I have the energy to do so. It's breaking my heart that I might not be able to do something so simple for him. Plus, I love to bake. It brings me such joy, but I don't think I can do so.
It's unbelievable to think that I'm considering purchasing cupcakes.
Somethings gotta give!
I don't know how difficult the weight loss process will be this time. At this point, I don't think walking is even possible. I know without a doubt that I need to walk & exercise to lose the weight. Watching my food intake is not enough.
Unfortunately, I'm having much difficulty with pain and fatigue. I'm sleeping my mornings away, because I'm not rested from the previous night. The pain in my hands and feet have escalated, but they still aren't as bad as I've experienced.
Last night before bed, I had another episode like last year. While the sensations were different, my nerves seemed to be hyper-sensitive. I can't even explain the sensation. When it started, it caused me to rub my face & scalp. The rest of my body had that odd sensation, too. But, I reacted to the face & scalp.
Last year, I thought the cold triggered the episode. After last night, I'm not so sure.
I'm so tired of being a marionette to my health issues. Today alone, I have so much that needs to be accomplished. Yet, I'm too tired to do most of it. I've managed some laundry, including folding things that have been in baskets for the last few days.
The worst indication of my condition--Jared requested I make cupcakes for his Band Banquet tomorrow. I don't think I have the energy to do so. It's breaking my heart that I might not be able to do something so simple for him. Plus, I love to bake. It brings me such joy, but I don't think I can do so.
It's unbelievable to think that I'm considering purchasing cupcakes.
Somethings gotta give!
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Still Feeling Awful
The boy is in his first year of marching band, which means every weekend is spent at football games--either chaperoning or working the concession stand--and competitions. In between, we are busy running to band practice. Plus, I work on Thursdays.
I feel as if I'm hanging on for dear life. I'm exhausted all the time. I manage to make it home after the competitions & crash for a couple of days. Take a couple of days to put out the fires--laundry & whatever cleaning I can manage in the process--only to start the madness over on Thursday.
It's unbelievably hectic & I'm completely overwhelmed. But, I also thoroughly enjoy watching the marching bands perform.
It's been almost 9 months since the pain & fatigue returned. I wish it would go away already.
Pass the cheese, please!
I feel as if I'm hanging on for dear life. I'm exhausted all the time. I manage to make it home after the competitions & crash for a couple of days. Take a couple of days to put out the fires--laundry & whatever cleaning I can manage in the process--only to start the madness over on Thursday.
It's unbelievably hectic & I'm completely overwhelmed. But, I also thoroughly enjoy watching the marching bands perform.
It's been almost 9 months since the pain & fatigue returned. I wish it would go away already.
Pass the cheese, please!
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Facing Reality
2011 has completely sucked!
I signed up for the Megatransect, a 26 mile ultra marathon, on January 1. Then promptly took a bad turn on January 20. I had hoped that it would be a shortlived, bump in the road.
Instead, I've been struggling with pain & fatigue for over 8 months. So much for training, when there have been too many days that I've managed nothing more than laying on the couch in agony, while watching Netflix or television trying to keep my mind off the misery in my muscles & joints. Yet, there is nothing wrong with me. *rolling eyes*
In the process, I've discovered certain levels of pain & misery. Fortunately, I haven't been confined to bed this year. But, I've had periods of time that the physical act of holding a book is more than I can handle. I've also had difficulty writing, because holding a pen is painful. Yeah, there's nothing wrong there!
Fortunately, I was able to walk a total of 9 3/4 miles this week. Quite a triumph considering my struggles in the past 8 months. All that inactivity has really taken a toll on my physical abilities.
Once upon a time, step class was a peice of cake. While I have 2 left feet, I thoroughly enjoyed that hour of stepping. Last class I struggled to make the hour.
So, no Mega for me.
However, Monday is a brand new beginning. No looking back with wishful thinking, because that isn't productive. Instead, I'm making a fresh, attainable goal--10 miles next week.
I signed up for the Megatransect, a 26 mile ultra marathon, on January 1. Then promptly took a bad turn on January 20. I had hoped that it would be a shortlived, bump in the road.
Instead, I've been struggling with pain & fatigue for over 8 months. So much for training, when there have been too many days that I've managed nothing more than laying on the couch in agony, while watching Netflix or television trying to keep my mind off the misery in my muscles & joints. Yet, there is nothing wrong with me. *rolling eyes*
In the process, I've discovered certain levels of pain & misery. Fortunately, I haven't been confined to bed this year. But, I've had periods of time that the physical act of holding a book is more than I can handle. I've also had difficulty writing, because holding a pen is painful. Yeah, there's nothing wrong there!
Fortunately, I was able to walk a total of 9 3/4 miles this week. Quite a triumph considering my struggles in the past 8 months. All that inactivity has really taken a toll on my physical abilities.
Once upon a time, step class was a peice of cake. While I have 2 left feet, I thoroughly enjoyed that hour of stepping. Last class I struggled to make the hour.
So, no Mega for me.
However, Monday is a brand new beginning. No looking back with wishful thinking, because that isn't productive. Instead, I'm making a fresh, attainable goal--10 miles next week.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Torturing the Boy
Stat: Hiked 2 hours (5 miles)
This afternoon we tortured the boy on a 5 mile hike around the lake. :)
I did just fine considering the Spin class I took yesterday. A bit sore, but not bad. Plus, my sit bones are rather tender. The reason why we hiked, instead of taking our first family ride of the spring.
I enjoyed our afternoon, though I'm sure the boy doesn't share that sentiment.
Get used to it, kid!
This afternoon we tortured the boy on a 5 mile hike around the lake. :)
I did just fine considering the Spin class I took yesterday. A bit sore, but not bad. Plus, my sit bones are rather tender. The reason why we hiked, instead of taking our first family ride of the spring.
I enjoyed our afternoon, though I'm sure the boy doesn't share that sentiment.
Get used to it, kid!
Friday, May 6, 2011
Doing Much Better
I am feeling so much better. It's absolutely crazy the way the pain & fatigue just comes and goes. Hopefully, the energy & good health are here to stay for a while.
Activity log:
April 29: Walked 30 minutes (1 1/2 miles)
Tammy's first time back to walking. So, we took it easy today.
May 2: Walked 1 hour (3 miles)
May 3: Walked 1 hour, 3 minutes (3 miles)
May 4: Treadmill 50 minutes (3 miles) & Step Class 45 minutes
The Step Class just reaffirmed that I have 2 left feet. Concentrated solely on getting the foot movements correct. I am most pleased with the evidence of my stamina. No pauses due to fatigue. Yay! Will most definitely take this class again.
May 6: Walked 30 minutes (1 3/4 miles) & Spin Class 45 minutes (13.6 miles)
All I can say about Spin Class is that I pedaled for 45 minutes straight with friction. Average RPM, 75. It was all I could do just to keep up with the pedaling. Positions 2 & 3, hovering and standing--Pfft!
I thought it was a Beginner's class. I also thought it was a half hour long. It wasn't. Under the circumstances, I can say I did just fine.
There will be a next time. But, I have to start at the beginning.
Activity log:
April 29: Walked 30 minutes (1 1/2 miles)
Tammy's first time back to walking. So, we took it easy today.
May 2: Walked 1 hour (3 miles)
May 3: Walked 1 hour, 3 minutes (3 miles)
May 4: Treadmill 50 minutes (3 miles) & Step Class 45 minutes
The Step Class just reaffirmed that I have 2 left feet. Concentrated solely on getting the foot movements correct. I am most pleased with the evidence of my stamina. No pauses due to fatigue. Yay! Will most definitely take this class again.
May 6: Walked 30 minutes (1 3/4 miles) & Spin Class 45 minutes (13.6 miles)
All I can say about Spin Class is that I pedaled for 45 minutes straight with friction. Average RPM, 75. It was all I could do just to keep up with the pedaling. Positions 2 & 3, hovering and standing--Pfft!
I thought it was a Beginner's class. I also thought it was a half hour long. It wasn't. Under the circumstances, I can say I did just fine.
There will be a next time. But, I have to start at the beginning.
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